first thread of an idiot

ok this is just me being a bit tipsy, lonely, idiotic and possibly looking for answers/ just putting shit out there alot of whats about to be put in here is more than enough to get my man card and hisstank membership banned. any whoo im an idiot, for the last 5 years ive been seeing a girl ( I'll call her A)that is just great. i mean everything is so simple with her. i don't have to go out spend time, money, hell i don't even have to be monagomous with her. we have great sex, she pays me to take care of her kids 2 hours aday 4 days a week. its $100. she has bought me and my famly gifts on holidays, her family even came over this last christmas. oh forgot she live only 3 houses away and we work in the same place. sounds great right? but still there's something misssing. now i'll tell about the other girl. ( call her R.) I have known R since high schoolo we met in church and started dating the first time back in 2000. we have been together and broken up several times in all this time. the latest was back in 2008. we have remained on good terms. we still hook up every so often. in all this time we have never bought each other gifts or had our familys meet up for anything not even a dinner just to chat.we have hung out mostly with only her friends/family. needless to say when im with her all free time has to be with her and she gets quite upset when i get called into work. This was the main reason we broke up this last time. its weird everything in me says stay with A get R out of my life, but its just like i said something about being with A just feels wrong. being with R is not always a walk in the park but i find that i feel more relaxed/free around her. deep down i know what i want but i know i may not find it with either if them but im lazy/scared to look for someone else. yea i hook up with girls when i can but the deep stuff i kinda shy away from. ok thats enough of my crap for now chime in if you want or don't. i won't mind but hell i would'nt get upset at any advise/crazyness u may think might help.

Did you put your D in R's A?

Originally Posted by Headman

Did you put your D in R's A?

Several times a yeaar

Originally Posted by redx24

Several times a yeaar

Good.

i like this thread

Originally Posted by OSOK

i like this thread

doomed to fail now

I was OSOK hunting have you guys happened to see an OSOK in these parts?

Originally Posted by DaveViper

I was OSOK hunting have you guys happened to see an OSOK in these parts?

not since about 12 am man

Originally Posted by redx24

not since about 12 am man

Thanks, I got some bear traps and peanut butter in case I find the OSOK.

Good luck with your lady problems, married now but dated two girls that worked at walmart a couple years ago, one worked in the pharmacy and one worked in the diary section. The Pharmacy girl was married but going through a divorce they lived in separate cities and the other one had no ideal I was dating the pharmacy girl too. It got real crazy when the one girl found out about the other. Man I'm glad I'm done with all that crazyness, do miss the single life sometimes though

lol thx man